Abandonment

So last Friday unfortunate news was dropped upon my family, my mom has breast cancer. And since that bomb was dropped my world seems to be spinning rapidly out of control. That entire weekend was pretty much a blur, and the weight of the whole situation never grounded itself upon my shoulders until late monday night last week. But since that complete emotional breakdown i have not gotten to speak to my mom once about what has been going on. Keith came home early from working in Manitoba to be with her, and since he got home last sunday i he has not left her side, which is good in its own way, but also means that my sisters and i have had no time with just her. Thinking i had plenty of time before she was in the hospital for surgery and then recovering after that, it didnt bother me all too much, figured she needed her space. But around 9:00 sunday night i get a phone call, "ok you can't be mad, but keith and are leaving for Vegas at 4:30 in the morning for the week." How can she honestly say 'don't be mad' when she obviously knew that i would be. she more or less ran away in the middle of the night with her boyfriend. I expected her to at least be coming back to the house and say goodbye to us before she left. But she didnt get abck to the house until about 1:30 that morning, darci and leah were both already sleeping and i was staying up jsut so i could tell her that i had her 11 year old daughter bawling herself to sleep in my bed becuase she didnt want her mom to leave. not only did she not seem to care for anything other than her trip, she didnt even wake leah up and tell her that she was leaving until 15 minutes before hand, and didnt bother to wake me up at all. She has not called once to even tell us how the trip is going, or even that she got there safely. i can undersand her wanting to get away for a while given the situation, its been hard on her, but what i dont think that she realizes is that is has been incredibly hard on us as well. with not having any time with her to talk and her taking off it made it even harder. she has about two and a half weeks until she is in the hospital and she is spending a week of that away from her family.